emotional adjustments

I have enjoyed the process of dreaming and developing new churches. It is what I live for, and was put on this planet for.

But this morning, about 6 am, we returned from helping Shawna, Jake, and Evan move to Tulsa for the Freedom Valley Tulsa plant there.

I could not be happier. Jason Fitch and his team have an amazing plan. They have researched and read tirelessly, and built a plan like I have never seen. I believe they are on their way to founding an amazing and world changing church there.

Nor could I be sadder. This represents a huge change for Freedom Valley and for me, and I am wildly nostalgic even while being very proud and happy. As we left Tulsa yesterday for the long drive home, I couldn't even speak. Nor am I sure if I can speak now.

I raised my children (spiritual and physical) hoping and praying that they would far exceed me in every way. They are. I am very proud of them and happy. But I also have some huge adjusting to do, and find myself pathetically in need of prayer more than ever.