God is unfair to me, again

So there are some things I gotta say. Because to not say them would be, well, grossly ungrateful.

Just got a comprehensive report on 2009. To my pleasant surprise, in a year when we had the privilege of sending out perhaps 10 times more people than ever before, our finances nevertheless still GREW by 9%!

Just to put this in perspective (and to brag on God a little more) we added up about $6000 (a month) in tithes that we sent out to church plants or sites. Yet our finances are about as good as or a little more than before! In addition, our attendance is better than ever, and God is sending us great leaders from all over the world (last week one came from Yerevan, Armenia!)

It does not make logical sense. Last year a very smart man sat in our finance team meeting, and reminded me how our plan is "not very well thought through, and doesn't make much sense. You will run out of money and lose people until you won't be able to sustain the "mother church" well enough to keep birthing daughter churches."

I will admit that sometimes I get anxious about the plan God has sent us on. It really is a Wild Goose Chase, to use Mark Batterson's imagery about following the Holy Spirit.

But either giving works, or it doesn't. I believe God is showing us that is does! All I know is this; this is not fair. God is not fair. He treats me much, much, better than I deserve.